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During meditation this morning of the full moon I deeply reflected on my current life circumstances and took responsibility for feeling overwhelmed once again.

There is no accident that I am living in multicultural household.

My in-laws are from Pakistan and live in the moment. Plans change with the wind and nothing can ever be planned .

I guess I needed this life lesson to fully see how my own franco-german conditioned ways always gravitate towards efficiency, organizing life so I can do what is meaningful for myself and my purpose of being alive, identified as healing the Patriarchal conditioned structures in my own life and helping other women do the same, contributing to creating a powerful movement for transformation on the planet.

Since I am skilled in organizing life I seem to automatically fill the gap of what is left undone or in my view disorganized and do it for my own sake and need of structure in my living environment.

When I realized this morning that in the last two weeks since returning from a writing retreat in York, PA with Christine Kloser and a group of writers all engaged in the My Time to Write program, I had not been able to align even one page, I had a moment of reckoning: something has to change and it will not be the others, it will have to be me.

Today is also a lunar eclipse, an opportune time to make changes. As Marina Ormes from www.astrologyheals.com writes:

This Aquarius Lunar Eclipse reminds you that the creative endeavors you pursue at this time are part of a bigger picture of change that involves dismantling the outmoded structures of the past in order to clear the way for smarter ideological, practical, and technical ways.

What am I dismantling? Yet again another layer of the Patriarchal conditioning where societies and life in general have heavily relied on women to do the work, often without monetary retribution.

Let’s acknowledge the multitude of women doing volunteer work in organizations, around the house, in the fields, cultivating crops in Third World countries and more….

So, yet again, always at a deeper layer, my own clearing of those structures in my own psyche will likely involve creating a new level of physical boundaries to get what I want to get accomplished done.

It seems I have raised my boundaries as high as possible in the current living environment, even have created occasional territorial boundaries, when I take refuge in my apartment in France to be by myself. So will have to step out of the house and go the library to get my writing done at least two days per week, if I want to respect my word and my self worth.

My commitment to my purpose and the deeper transformation of societal structures contributing to creating a new world is reinforced by this latest full moon revelation!

I am curious if you care to share what your commitment to yourself is and if the full moon energies helped you deepen your connection to yourself?

One Response to “Full Moon Revelation”

  1. Don Awalt says:

    Aline,

    Thanks for sharing. I am currently between homes. On Monday the 31st of July I moved out of a house I dearly loved. It was perfect for me, an older home in a mature community. Friendly neighbors that respected boundaries. A couple of blocks from a beautiful park, quite bustling with activity.

    The house to which I am moving I have owned for most of my life. I had been renting it out, and it is in poor shape. The current tenants are there until mid-September.

    So I am currently bouncing between placed to life. All of my belongings stored in three different locations. It has been a test of patience, and an exercise in staying grounded. And when I do move in, there is a lot of work to be done.

    I do look at the moon for guidance, setting my intention with the new moon, and watching those desires blossom as the moon fills. Now in it’s waning state, I reflect on what I have learned from this cycle, culminating with a full eclipse on the 21st.

    The intention for this cycle is to put myself first. I had let my writing take the back seat to life’s busy-ness all in the name of priorities and responsibility. In setting that intention, I have found a writers group that has great promise. We meet Wednesday mornings, with writing being the focus, not chit chat. It has been a nice pilot light to keep my journal handy, and keep the words flowing.

    In looking back, I see that community helps my discipline to write. When I separate myself, and work as an island among the waters infested with work responsibilities, family expectations, social temptations, and just wanting to relax in nothingness, I stand alone wondering where, and how my book will ever complete.

    In community, I find others, such as yourself, struggle with the same. My question for recent months has been, “What is important for me?” and the underlying question of why it is important. That is what brought me to York last month, at a time when I had many excuses not to go. I am finding that the more I flock with those who persevere through the same struggles as I, at least I do not feel alone.

    That inspires me to write….

    Don