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Today, I lean against my fears! This is my challenge for the day.

Noticing what is there!  Awareness is the first step  to transformation. It has to become a new habit of thought!

What do I fear? Writing an auto-responder message, since I have never done it and I imagine it will be difficult, so I keep putting it off, instead of just opening up the aweber account and following the guidelines and just doing it. And I will, now that I am facing it!

Is it true that it is difficult? Only if I stick to that story, then I will never get to it! Once I learn how to do it, it will become a new skill I will have acquired!

What else do I fear? Fear of judgment, since I should have worked on the website and redesigned it and I didn’t do it because I am waiting for the light bulb to strike. Perhaps a secret wish of a genie doing it for me, so I won’t ever have to fully face that fear. That fear is a eternal companion that always fades away whenever I lean into it and face it and just do it. In truth, I did not write the auto-responder messages because I wanted to website to look good and be perfect before I do so!!!!

I have 3 websites in different stages of development, none completely satisfying and representative of what I want to convey and unless I work on clarifying that message over and over again, it also will not get done by itself. There too, I am noticing a secret wish of having someone hold my hand and guide me!!! I am noticing that I had even removed my website from my email signature since I judged myself harshly for it not being perfect!!!! What is perfect? Another one of those thoughts that carry a heavy meaning, loaded with feelings which bring up emotions, in this case rather dis-empowering ones. Such a thought generates procrastination, since deep down, I know that I never will be perfect. But my automatic mind keeps on betting unrealistically against all odds.

So what else do I fear? Come to think about it, I could list a long laundry list of thoughts that occasionally keep creeping up. But do they mean anything? Are they true? Not really, they are only true to the extend  I give them the power to create meaning and to the extend I identify with them. My mind is a meaning making machine, this is part of my operating system as a human being.

So noticing that when I made the choice to lean into my fears this morning, a rush of chemical reactions started to occur in my system that at first I wanted to escape. But choice is powerful and can override the automatic habit of thought!

Nothing is more powerful than moving into action, it helps bring clarity to the situation one step at a time.

What fears will you lean into today? Let’s empower each other to break free of that old habit of thought and create our reality freshly moment by moment!

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December 4, 2012,

Heart-Centered Activism 

Activism is a personal choice. It is a passion for a cause expressed
through actions, funding, communication, as well as prayer, rituals, and art.

Dear Friends and Supporters of a Global Conference on Women (5WCW),

A rallying symbol. Not a political statement!

 

 

Here is an excerpt from my writing-activism,  Moving Toward the Millionth CircleEnergizing the Global Women’s Movement. It was inspired and provoked by reactions to the announcement of support for a global conference on women by the UN Secretary General and President of the 66th General Assembly (March 8, 2012). This little book is for heart-centered activists who are motivated to act by compassionate action, a sense of sisterhood, or fierce mother bear protectiveness which is a combination of love and outrage.

Heart-Centered Activism

It takes work to be an activist of any kind.

There are twists and turns,

setbacks, large and small victories.

always much to be done

and more to do.

If you are called to be an activist

“take heart” applies.

It will be a labyrinthine journey that will test you.

Sometimes it will seem that the path is going straight to the goal,

and then it turns sharply and you feel back to square one,

as in a board game.

Will you give up or will you keep on?

Circumstances change, people who you counted on

may not come through.

May join forces with others, abandon ship.

Or just run out of steam.

It helps all concerned to be in a circle of support

with shared meaning at the center.

Activism is really not a job for a do-it-yourself action hero.

even if it depends on one person doing her job

at a particular moment.

When activism is your assignment in the way that I define it,

meaningful, fun, motivated by love,

then it also is soul work.

Assignments 

The idea of recognizing an assignment when one comes along grows through personal encounters with people whose lives and “assignments” are congruent, authentic, and involved in service. There are many, many good causes to become involved with, but the assignment about which I write is one that has your name on it, written so only you know that this one is for you. It is something you volunteer to do. Taking on an assignment is an aspect of individuation—of becoming authentically oneself, of being on a path with heart or on a chosen life path. It is doing soul work. And as many may tell you who began with something small but significant, one step leads to another.Moving Toward

The idea that an “assignment” could be your soul work begins with a premise that we have a soul as most everyone throughout time has assumed; if so, there must be some point in being here. An immortal soul comes in through the body of a biological mother, into a world of family, society, culture, and time, that is either welcoming or not. I remember the series of insights that led me to think that we are “spiritual beings on a human path, rather than human beings who may or may not be on a spiritual path” as I wrote in Close to the Bone: Life-Threatening Illness as a Soul Journey. Our lives are short, time passes quickly, and we will have our share of suffering and joy. Time, place, skin color and gender will greatly affect the expectations, opportunities, and limitations placed on us.  And yet, if we have a soul, then what we do here in the time we have matters.

In this particular historical and cosmological time, the excesses of alpha male psychology and patriarchy has brought humanity and the planet to the brink, and some of the wiser men look to women to save the situation: “We men have made a proper mess of things, it’s up to women to save us,” from Desmond Tutu, former Anglican archbishop and Nobel Peace Laureate, or as the nineteenth-century philosopher Matthew Arnold foresaw, “If ever the women of the world came together solely for the benefit of mankind, it would be a force the world has never seen.”

I took on the assignment of advocacy for a UN Fifth World Conference on Women (5WCW) as a direct outgrowth of the idea behind the metaphoric millionth circle. My advocacy is not a goal in itself, but a giant step toward reaching the millionth circle—just as smaller conferences of women and gatherings with this intention also will be. Circles that form during a workshop, as well as ones I have been in for many years, continue to inspire me.  I can say from my own experience that “Each circle supports each woman in it to believe in herself and live authentically, to be who she could be with support from the circle and spiritual energy from her deepest sources, and to live into her assignment.”

Definition: Assignment. (1.) Meaningful

Meaningful is an inside definition—no one else’s opinion matters here. There is aconnection between who you are inside, what you have experienced, and how being involved in this is meaningful to you. Very often there is some personal reason for taking this one on, which may have led to starting an organization or being part of it. For me, realizing what women’s circles with a sacred center can do to support the life, the creativity, and the activism of its members, came from being in a prayer circle for decades (irreverently called “the Sisters of Perpetual Disorder”) and the “mother circle of the Millionth Circle” for just over a decade.

Each year, when I attend presentations and panels given by women activists from NGOs (non-governmental organizations) at the United Nations, I become aware of how many of them as young women were in need of the services that they provide, and are survivors who work to end abuses. Examples abound, such as the women who once were trafficked and now work to rescue trafficked women. Compassion in action called many activist women who were moved by the plight of young girls.

Definition: Assignment (2.) Fun

Fun—when you are with others who share your values, and with whom you can celebrate, laugh, mourn, or cry together at the ups and downs of the journey. When what you do matters and you feel and see that it makes a difference.  When it uses your creativity and you find the courage to do it. When you can be so involved and absorbed in it that you lose track of time. You may never have worked so hard in your life, and yet never spent the time with more satisfaction.

However, every heart activist or creative woman in for the long run also knows that the definition of “fun” doesn’t fit those times in which criticism rains down, when funds dry up, or worse, when people who you thought of as friends abandon, betray, or make fun of you. Or when you hear: “Who do you think you are?”  During times that are clearly “not fun,” if the assignment is true one, it remains meaningful to you. Plus, there is truth in the saying, “activism is a cure for despair.” Even in the worst of times, if you continue to be an activist and understand the principle of tipping point—that when it is reached, it required all the actions and consciousness-raising that preceded it—you keep on keeping on.

Definition: Assignment (3.) Motivated by Love

Motivated by love—love for what you protect, or serve, or help—it could be a principle, people, animals, and nature. Love for beauty, for peace and harmony. To want for others what you are grateful to have. For many women who are becoming activists, spirituality came first. Love for the sacred feminine, for Gaia—the Earth as Great Mother, for Mother’s Agenda: for all children to have what every mother wants for her own child.

Love is the only source of energy that is not zero-sum: if I give you anything else, you will have more and I’ll have less.  This is not so with love: the more love I give you, the more I have myself, the more you will have, and the more there will be in the world.

©2012 by Jean Shinoda Bolen.
 Manuscript for Moving Toward the Millionth Circle

PSYCHONAVIGATION WORKSHOP

PSYCHONAVIGATION
Journey to Your Dream
Personal & Global Transformation
Psychonavigation is a powerful body of knowledge practiced by indigenous societies from time
immemorial to access ‘non-ordinary’ reality – an altered state of consciousness beyond time and
space to access spiritual guidance and healing using shamanic journeys.

DATE OF NEXT WORKSHOP
November 12 & 13, 2012

9.00AM – 2.00 PM
Al Romaizan Compound

A few days ago was deeply touched by the movie The Lamp sent by the Spiritual Cinema Circle highlighting the power of belief in turning a difficult situation around.

I had just completed teaching a 5 week course on the creative process and how to apply it to the conscious creation of your life and was contemplating the next challenge of writing about the process of transformation, liberation and change and was noticing, acutely aware, my tendencies to procrastinate when it comes to writing on this topic, which has been germinating for quite a few years now.

It seems to be a call from the depth of my soul to write and my ego self with all its self limiting thoughts had gotten the upper hand for the last few years. Then when I saw The Lamp, it all came into focus. Just believe in yourself and love yourself enough to give it the best you got for your own sake. Never underestimate the power of one person to change the world, I don’t recall who said that, but today it feels true to me. One step at a time.

Then today received the following video that I chose to share with you. Enjoy and believe in you!

http://www.flickspire.com/m/guidance/MyWish

Inner transformation and reclaiming our individual power matters. Only from the inside out will global transformation take root and it is each and everyone’s task. A few suggestions can be found in the following article by John Perkins:
By John Perkins
While the media has its finely tuned witty repartee in full motion during the Republican run-off races, don’t let that repartee fool you into thinking this election or any other will usher in a new paradigm. Only you can do that. Us. We the People taking action.
Elections do matter —  as a way for us to select progressive politicians who want to serve the mission of sustainability, peace and true prosperity for all. But, we must not be lulled into believing that they will do that without our constant vigil and daily actions.
We can only vote once during elections – every two or four years. However, we vote every day in the marketplace by choosing to support corporations that are dedicated to being environmentally and socially responsible.
Our votes count when we vote to end this era of predatory capitalism that began in the 1970s. Today people around the world are waking up and speaking out. The lessons of Latin America, the Middle East, and the Occupy movements inspire us to choose to occupy peace, sustainability, and human rights.
The time has arrived for all of us to defeat politicians who want to restrict our rights to assemble and speak from our hearts, to diminish the power of those in the banking systems and on Wall Street who undermine the values that established the very foundations of this great nation, to end the militarized economy, and to usher in an era that will be characterized by cooperation and compassion.
We need organizations that will promote sustainable energy, and help starving people feed themselves, that will create a world where no one is denied medical care and the right to live out his or her last days in dignity, and where there is no more need for an arms race because we stand united in building a sustainable and thriving future for all our grandchildren – whether they are born in Afghanistan, Somalia, Venezuela, or the ghettoes of New York City.
So as you go to the voting booths during this election year and as you walk the aisles of the places where you shop, feel your power. Vote wisely in all these places. And also take daily action. There are so many opportunities! Here are just a few ideas:
Volunteer at or donate money to non-profits that represent your values. We need organizations that will make a better world.
One thing you could do TODAY is to support those who are working to ensure the Internet is not going to be censored via SOPA- http://americancensorship.org/ . Today http://sopastrike.com/ thousands of sites , will go dark to protest  http://fightforthefuture.org/pipa SOPA & PIPA, two US bills http://sopacountdown.com/ racing through Congress that threaten http://iworkfortheinternet.org/ prosperity, http://trustnerds.org/ online security, and http://fightforthefuture.org/pipa/ freedom of expression
Or choose to volunteer at non-profits that are focused on sustainability. Donate to Pachamama – http://www.pachamama.org and DreamChange –  http://www.dreamchange.org which I support fully.
Or join the Moms Clean Air Task force – http://www.momscleanairforce.org/ and support the Care2 Petition – http://www.care2.com actions as well.
Each of you has a real vote in this world and the way you can exercise it is to take steps away from the pollsters and politician hype-fests and choose to create a better world for all of us – every sentient being on this planet.
There is no alternative vision that any politician can offer us unless it includes a vision of peace, prosperity, and liberty for all.
John
John Perkins
New York Times bestselling author
I received this email today and thought of sharing it here:
Welcome to the Global Coherence Initiative’s January 9, 2012 full moon (07:30 UTC) synchronized Care Focus. In order for GCI members around the world to participate at a convenient time, we have chosen 4 a.m., 12:00 p.m. (noon), and 8 p.m. Pacific Standard Time ( GMT/UTC minus 8 hours ) when GCI members in the Global Care Room can do the Care Focus together.* (The following website – www.timeanddate.com/worldclock/converter.html – is a time conversion site for determining the exact time the Care Focus will take place in your Local Time Zone. Select time: 8 p.m. (date optional). Convert from: Location: U.S.A. – California – San Francisco. Convert to: Location: Select your Country/City.) Thank you for being with us.
Many people anticipate 2012 to be a momentous year – an opportunity for individuals and for the collective to co-create a consciousness shift. The purpose of GCI is to increase heart coherence in the planetary energetic field environment to make this shift easier and accessible to more people. GCI research, membership, webinars, partnerships and the Global Care Rooms are for this purpose.
Global coherence doesn’t mean that every soul on the planet has to be heart coherent all at the same time; and total coherence won’t happen all at the same time. Coherence will increase in ratios over time, based on individual participation and actualization. However, collective heart-based events and intentions throughout 2012, involving myriad care-agents from all parts of the world, can cause a considerable jump in the coherence baseline, more so than we’ve experienced as of yet. This increased vibration in the field environment will encourage more people than ever to pursue becoming “who they truly are” (their real self), and to take the necessary steps to actualize it. We are individually responsible for sorting out “what’s our old self” and “what’s the new,” then using our heart’s intuitive guidance to help make the needed upgrade and align with our authentic nature. As we individually change, so does the planetary well-being.
The GCI hypothesis is that: Increased individual coherence leads to increased social coherence which leads to increased global coherence (in the planetary energetic field environment). As people commit to increasing their personal heart coherence baseline and radiate coherent intentions into the global field environment – it generates a synergistic feedback loop between humanity and the earth’s energetic fields. This alignment helps to raise the vibration of consciousness which inspires a deeper heart-felt connection among each other along with increased heart-based cooperation, yielding creative solutions for taking care of the earth and all its inhabitants. (The benefits are endless, yet this is not the space to elaborate.) The goal is to realize that we are one Earth, one yard and one people.
For 2012, let’s resolve to upgrade our personal coherence. Let’s commit to increasing our capacity to self-regulate our mind and emotions by aligning them with our heart’s intuitive guidance. Then they become the expressions of our higher qualities—love, care, compassion, kindness, gratitude, patience, forgiveness, acceptance… When our mind and ego vanities run the show without our heart’s guidance, our mental and emotional energy can tend to manifest as insecurity, frustration, impatience, separation, worry, anger, fear, depression, resignation… We all have our own personalized list. (This reads like a chapter in a self-help manual, doesn’t it—a bit of humor.) Yet it’s these types of feelings and emotions that prevent global coherence and especially block our personal coherent connection to who we truly are.
Let’s start the New Year with a collective GCI member’s resolution and commitment to access the power of our heart and patch these age-old energy leaks and coherence blocks. This is one of the highest contributions to the field environment we could make.
Let’s envision more people than ever through 2012, finding a deeper heart connection in their interactions and communications with each other as this is the baseline for social coherence which precedes global coherence. See qualities of the heart such as kindness, respect, non-judgment and compassion going viral within the global community. As we practice heart qualities in our local environment, it strengthens the coherence we radiate into the global field.
Now let’s do the January 2012 full moon synchronized Care Focus together.
For those of you who are new participants in the synchronized Care Focus, if you are logged into the Global Care Room, you can see your green marker and the gold light points of others around the world in the Care Room at the same time. Realize that one gold light can represent a family, a group or an entire audience viewing the Care Room and doing the Care Focus together.
We will start by breathing love and genuine care in and out through our heart area to increase our heart coherence … Now let’s radiate heart energy to everyone participating in this Care Focus. Imagine our interconnectedness as a network of light, and see our collective heart energy being amplified through the network of light…
Care Focus: Upgrading our Personal Coherence
Let’s radiate our coherent heart intention into the planetary field environment to upgrade our personal coherence. Let’s commit to increasing our individual and collective capacity to self-regulate our emotions by aligning them with our heart’s intuitive guidance. Then they become the expressions of our higher qualities—love, care, compassion, kindness, gratitude, patience, forgiveness, acceptance… Let’s envision more people than ever through 2012, finding a deeper heart connection in their interactions and communications with each other, as this is the baseline for social coherence which precedes global coherence… See qualities of the heart such as kindness, respect, non-judgment and compassion going viral within the global community… Once you feel complete with this, radiate the collective heart energy to Iran, Syria and other stress points in the Middle East and to other global challenges taking place, as your intuitive heart directs you.
After 15 minutes
You can continue to do this Care Focus in the Global Care Room after the full moon period. Remember that as we practice heart qualities in our local environment, it strengthens the coherence we radiate into the global field.
Thank you for your participation in this Care Focus.
The GCI Staff
* To join the GCI Care Focus in the Global Care Room, you can enter the room directly from www.globalcarerooms.org. Simply log-in with your e-mail and GCI password. Until the next synchronized Care Focus, it would be effective for the planet if we individually continue this Care Focus often in the Global Care Room.
Global Coherence Initiative – 14700 West Park Ave – Boulder Creek, California 95006 – 831-706-2981

GCI January 2012 Full Moon Synchronized Care Focus
Welcome to the Global Coherence Initiative’s January 9, 2012 full moon (07:30 UTC) synchronized Care Focus. In order for GCI members around the world to participate at a convenient time, we have chosen 4 a.m., 12:00 p.m. (noon), and 8 p.m. Pacific Standard Time ( GMT/UTC minus 8 hours ) when GCI members in the Global Care Room can do the Care Focus together.* (The following website – www.timeanddate.com/worldclock/converter.html – is a time conversion site for determining the exact time the Care Focus will take place in your Local Time Zone. Select time: 8 p.m. (date optional). Convert from: Location: U.S.A. – California – San Francisco. Convert to: Location: Select your Country/City.) Thank you for being with us.
Many people anticipate 2012 to be a momentous year – an opportunity for individuals and for the collective to co-create a consciousness shift. The purpose of GCI is to increase heart coherence in the planetary energetic field environment to make this shift easier and accessible to more people. GCI research, membership, webinars, partnerships and the Global Care Rooms are for this purpose.
Global coherence doesn’t mean that every soul on the planet has to be heart coherent all at the same time; and total coherence won’t happen all at the same time. Coherence will increase in ratios over time, based on individual participation and actualization. However, collective heart-based events and intentions throughout 2012, involving myriad care-agents from all parts of the world, can cause a considerable jump in the coherence baseline, more so than we’ve experienced as of yet. This increased vibration in the field environment will encourage more people than ever to pursue becoming “who they truly are” (their real self), and to take the necessary steps to actualize it. We are individually responsible for sorting out “what’s our old self” and “what’s the new,” then using our heart’s intuitive guidance to help make the needed upgrade and align with our authentic nature. As we individually change, so does the planetary well-being.
The GCI hypothesis is that: Increased individual coherence leads to increased social coherence which leads to increased global coherence (in the planetary energetic field environment). As people commit to increasing their personal heart coherence baseline and radiate coherent intentions into the global field environment – it generates a synergistic feedback loop between humanity and the earth’s energetic fields. This alignment helps to raise the vibration of consciousness which inspires a deeper heart-felt connection among each other along with increased heart-based cooperation, yielding creative solutions for taking care of the earth and all its inhabitants. (The benefits are endless, yet this is not the space to elaborate.) The goal is to realize that we are one Earth, one yard and one people.
For 2012, let’s resolve to upgrade our personal coherence. Let’s commit to increasing our capacity to self-regulate our mind and emotions by aligning them with our heart’s intuitive guidance. Then they become the expressions of our higher qualities—love, care, compassion, kindness, gratitude, patience, forgiveness, acceptance… When our mind and ego vanities run the show without our heart’s guidance, our mental and emotional energy can tend to manifest as insecurity, frustration, impatience, separation, worry, anger, fear, depression, resignation… We all have our own personalized list. (This reads like a chapter in a self-help manual, doesn’t it—a bit of humor.) Yet it’s these types of feelings and emotions that prevent global coherence and especially block our personal coherent connection to who we truly are.
Let’s start the New Year with a collective GCI member’s resolution and commitment to access the power of our heart and patch these age-old energy leaks and coherence blocks. This is one of the highest contributions to the field environment we could make.
Let’s envision more people than ever through 2012, finding a deeper heart connection in their interactions and communications with each other as this is the baseline for social coherence which precedes global coherence. See qualities of the heart such as kindness, respect, non-judgment and compassion going viral within the global community. As we practice heart qualities in our local environment, it strengthens the coherence we radiate into the global field.
Now let’s do the January 2012 full moon synchronized Care Focus together.
For those of you who are new participants in the synchronized Care Focus, if you are logged into the Global Care Room, you can see your green marker and the gold light points of others around the world in the Care Room at the same time. Realize that one gold light can represent a family, a group or an entire audience viewing the Care Room and doing the Care Focus together.
We will start by breathing love and genuine care in and out through our heart area to increase our heart coherence … Now let’s radiate heart energy to everyone participating in this Care Focus. Imagine our interconnectedness as a network of light, and see our collective heart energy being amplified through the network of light…
Care Focus: Upgrading our Personal Coherence
Let’s radiate our coherent heart intention into the planetary field environment to upgrade our personal coherence. Let’s commit to increasing our individual and collective capacity to self-regulate our emotions by aligning them with our heart’s intuitive guidance. Then they become the expressions of our higher qualities—love, care, compassion, kindness, gratitude, patience, forgiveness, acceptance… Let’s envision more people than ever through 2012, finding a deeper heart connection in their interactions and communications with each other, as this is the baseline for social coherence which precedes global coherence… See qualities of the heart such as kindness, respect, non-judgment and compassion going viral within the global community… Once you feel complete with this, radiate the collective heart energy to Iran, Syria and other stress points in the Middle East and to other global challenges taking place, as your intuitive heart directs you.
After 15 minutes
You can continue to do this Care Focus in the Global Care Room after the full moon period. Remember that as we practice heart qualities in our local environment, it strengthens the coherence we radiate into the global field.
Thank you for your participation in this Care Focus.
The GCI Staff
* To join the GCI Care Focus in the Global Care Room, you can enter the room directly from www.globalcarerooms.org. Simply log-in with your e-mail and GCI password. Until the next synchronized Care Focus, it would be effective for the planet if we individually continue this Care Focus often in the Global Care Room.
Global Coherence Initiative – 14700 West Park Ave – Boulder Creek, California 95006 – 831-706-2981

Sharon Crawford is manifesting her purpose by interviewing spiritual messengers worldwide and raising consciousness about the truth of who we are.

I braved my perfectionist tendencies and posted a video on her soul story contest page. Should some of you wish to vote for me, all you need to do is sign up at http://www.spiritualmessengersacademy.com.

You will then receive an email and at the bottom of the email is the link to the soul stories. My video is the first one on the page, it is just a little under 5 minutes long. The person with the most clicks will get a chance to be interviewed on her show.

My video is work in progress and it was an opportunity to try my message for size. There are still a few elements missing, but no longer waiting for perfection to lift me out of procrastination! Time is running out!

During the last two days, this started on Sept 10th after my Inner Source Meditation (inspired by Barbara Marx Hubbard), I was directed to reflect on the past 10 years, since 9/11 was such a momentous event for the world and for me, a wake up call that could not be missed. Since I was living in Saudi Arabia, and have been privileged to travel the world I knew of the many problems in the 2nd and 3rd world that many people began to wake up to. I felt compelled to be a bridge between cultures and started to look for the “how” and kept judging myself that 10 years on I still haven’t come up with a ‘system’ of sort, in the traditional outdated (I see that now) linear mode of my conditioned programming. No one has the single answer, but my ego kept on judging me (it had lifetimes of practice!) and I was turning in circles….

Yesterday I started to map year by year the highlights of each year and I was struggling with spelling it out linearly in writing. Today I started to notice 3 themes interwoven, which makes it easier to convey:

The first is disruption, events in the Middle East, direct consequence of 9/11, the invasion of Iraq and the retaliation locally by terrorist attacks against Western compounds (in 2003 I lived less than a mile away from the compound where many expatriates lost their live, I heard the bomb blast…), the constant theme of war and attacks the world over, almost daily on television screens, perpetuating fear… Upon further reflection I am realizing that this was mirroring my internal war, my self judgments of never being good enough and there was no chance for redemption ever….

The second theme that started to emerge is a direct call from Spirit that summoned me to action. It started around February-March 2002, I was feeling drumming in my hara center, literally could feel the wall of my belly fluttering. At first I was scared, what disease do I have, what is wrong with me….but soon a call emerged, a yearning to go into the wood, to be alone in Nature (and I was in the midst of the Desert in Saudi Arabia, no woods….). It stopped only when I made the resolve to take care of that need in August when I would be in Canada and I went then hiking solo while fasting in Algonquin Park for 10 days…. Something else I never dared share publicly with the world, just with a few close friends who knew me well. Which was followed by a few years of immersing myself in new (for me then) emerging edge ideas (transpersonal psychology, Spiral Dynamics) and older ones I had dismissed in the past (due to my overly rational mind) shamanism (Shapeshifting consciousness) and meditating and sharing online using the Vistar method (Andrew Cohen groups).

The third theme I am beginning to identify is connections to like minded people emerging in the last 3 years. But I was still feeling isolated (due to my own self judgments which kept me separate intra psychically). Learning about the new technology via the internet, being trapped into buying many programs claiming to have the solution to your problems, since I was still searching outside of myself for my own answers… but integrating some tools nevertheless. Then last year beginning to meet like minded women through Feminine Power, a few Mastermind programs, attending The Reconnection trainings, clearly I am not alone being “weird” (still judging…), and NOW via The Shift Network the course with Barbara Marx Hubbard, Agents of Conscious Evolution, again summoned to sign up for it, when I am only now beginning to have time to attend to it, giving me the larger context I was yearning for…. All in Divine Timing….. Then two days ago that deep connection to my God Self, a deep surrender, the shift is notable. Conscious evolution working its magic….The co-creative dance of evolution linking events, people, inspiration…

Since The Reconnection trainings with Dr. Eric Pearl last year,  I had hardly posted on my blog. I did not know where to begin articulating the depth of transformation occuring…. New energies are emerging now and I will document what is emerging through me in the days and weeks to come….

Lynne McTaggart through the site www.intentionexperiment911.com is coordinating a peace experiment ongoing for the next 7 days. I am sharing below my experience of participating on the first day yesterday.

I had browser problems yesterday (Chrome did not open) so I am glad to see that Lynne McTaggart on her Facebook page www.facebook.com/LynneMcTaggart2011 posted the first live stream where Dr. Salah AlRashed offered his apologies to the West and she will post hers tomorrow. Then around 8.20 PM (my local time, 1.20 PM Eastern) yesterday I proceeded with the meditation sending peace to Afghanistan, this just popped into my mind since I did not know the topic of the experiment and experienced overwhelming love for all parties warring in that country.

Then a few minutes into it clearly got a message to try Firebox browser where I could then finally access the topic of the peace experiment. Was touched to tears to realize I had tapped into the topic. The power of the interconnected space and our common power to create when we come together in that space. I am so lit up!….

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